thing are just depressing... life in general. what life is, is depression and when you feel happy your just covering it up.. and theres always a time were it fades and you feel like nothings going right. you dont feel like anything important and you hate yourself... everything about you is bad and you wish you could change things... but you cant and you try so hard but no matter what the mask falls apart. and the thing with happiness is that you use money or matterial things to make you feel better. make up to cover your ugly face and push up bras to make your boobs bigger buy jean that are $100. and in the end you want more like its not enough... like 1 pair of jeans isnt going to do you want a weeks worth... and the shirt doesnt match... or some of us just get picked on. and were pretty. we really are but its not you to dress in skiny jeans and wear makeup. so we get singled out and we feel unwanted alone afraid. and we hurt ourselves cuz the blood and pain takes it way.. or the drugs claims us and lets us forget. but it always go back the feeling of depression. and some of us cant take the depression or they are sick of feeling the way they do. so they hurt there self or kill them selfs... and everyone that loves them is now hurt and in pain wandering why.. when its the same feeling... we all wander why. why does no one like me... why am i not pretty enough.. why did he shot himself. why does my dad beat me... why doesnt my mom except im a tomboy. why dont the kids at school see me for me... why can anyone see im hurting... why am i hurting.. why do i feel this way... why do i think of thing twisted thoughts... thoughts of killing myself... thoughts of hurtiing myself or others. i can figure it out.......... and everyone has if not more then one of those whys.. but we dont want to admit it cuz it would be weak.. but we all are weak.. and if you think, are any of us storng... what is strong... we have our breaking point and our weak points.. but we try so hard to cover them up cuz you dont want to look like a baby like you cant handle the joke cuz it would make it the teasing worst... so we keep it all in till it we cant hold it back and then your even weaker then if you would of let it out befor... and you cry yourself to sleep and lie to everyone about how you feel trying to find truth in your lie but its not there cuz your depressed and unhappy... and you always will be cuz your living a lie.. and that lie is your life!



note: its kind just runnon and thats what i think speaks the most... and its jumpy... i know.. ive never been a good wrighter i just kinda went on and on... lol well dont mind if i spelt anything wrong its cool i know i cant spell... just comment plz..